La Petite Belle has always tugged on my heartstrings. Beau says she's always played me. I don't see it that way. She's my baby, that's all. K Belle would most likely agree that I've babied La Petite Belle, but, like I said ... she's the baby.
We had the sweetest conversation with our precious La Petite Belle last night.
She was particularly sad throughout the day. She ended up having some pretty intense nausea all day and, by the end of the day, vomited quite a bit of blood again. Obviously that all had to come out. Before that her hemoglobin was holding steady for almost four days, which was the longest it had held on in a while.
As you can imagine, vomiting blood is quite scary. I would be a little freaked out if I did it.
Her stomach settled down after that. I tucked her into bed and she began to cry. I asked her what was wrong, other than the obvious. Because there are times you have to just cry here, and there's not really one specific reason, but you just have to cry.
She looked at me, through tears, and said, "I love you so much."
I told her I loved her too.
She looked over at Beau and said, "I just want y'all to know how much I really love y'all."
I told her we did.
She said, "I feel like I have taken life for granted. We don't know what tomorrow holds and I want to make sure y'all know that. I haven't told y'all enough how much I love y'all. I want to tell y'all a lot every day."
Yes, there were tears.
She was a little down and definitely more worried because of the vomiting ... afraid of the unknown, afraid of what tomorrow holds.
Beau encouraged her. He reminded her that she still had a lot of life to live. She agreed and will continue to fight no matter how long it takes. In fact, she stated that very thing ... "I don't care how long it takes as long as I can live."
Sweet girl. This is a lot for a 15-year-old to handle ... a lot for a kid at any age. And, being a parent who is helpless in all this, you begin to realize all you can do is hold their hands, love them, comfort them, encourage them, and pray for them.
Through this whole journey, I am getting to see what an incredible girl she is. She continues to amaze me with her strength and teaches me to make the most of every moment in life. Take nothing for granted. Live life to the fullest and always say "I love you" to those you love.
This girl has ALWAYS lived her life ALL IN! We love that about her!
Thank you for continuing to pray, stand, and believe with us for La Petite Belle's complete healing!
If you would like to financially support Katie's (aka La Petite Belle) journey to healing, you can find more information here: www.gofundme.com/Katieg. All funds go to cover medical bills and expenses.