I thought about that question last night.
Yesterday marked nine days in which La Petite Belle has been in pain. Some days are worse than others. Yesterday seemed to me more manageable than the rest.
However, some intense pain hit her in the early evening. It was the worst of the day.
In that moment, she grabbed my hand and said, "Can we pray?"
This is not uncommon for her to do. She asks quite frequently when her pain is pretty severe and we will immediately pray for relief and strength.
But, this time was different.
In this particular moment, she didn't ask to pray for herself at all, despite her pain level being high. She said this: "Can we pray for Mrs. Kindra, Anais, and Paige? I want to pray that no one ever has to go through this and they would never have to experience how hard this is." The people she asked to pray for are people who are about to or are going through transplants. She admitted "this is so hard." We already knew this, but to hear her say it makes it even harder.
She cried at the thought of them experiencing the pain she has been in. I cried. It was another precious moment where I was able to see inside my girl's heart. She has ALWAYS had a big heart for people and shown compassion for those who are hurting.
Don't get me wrong. There are definitely lots of times when pain comes where she can only focus on the pain. That's the majority of the time actually. Most of us would do that. I often think about childbirth and the moments of intense pain that I had as I watch her go through these times. I guarantee you that I DID NOT ask to pray for anyone during those times. My mind was consumed with the pain that was going on in my body. All I wanted was relief.
If we could all remember to pray for those around us even when we're experiencing some of our darkest and most painful moments, things could turn around in our own lives. Praying for others gets our focus off of our own problems. I'm going to remind myself next time I'm in pain to pray for someone else ... for healing ... for needs being met. Jesus did it. He did it on the cross when He asked God to forgive others. As He was dying, He prayed for us.
This girl continues to amaze me. She has gone through and continues to go through more hard stuff than most people will ever experience in their lives. We are all ready for her to get real relief and move forward in her healing process.
Please continue to pray for complete healing from GVHD and that these viruses would be gone out of her body ... that her body would start to fight these viruses. We continue to pray, believe, and trust God for her total healing and guidance for the doctors. Thank you for praying with us!
If you would like to financially support Katie's (aka La Petite Belle) journey to healing, you can find more information here: www.gofundme.com/Katieg. All funds go to cover medical bills and expenses.