Wednesday, January 28, 2015

God can use a donkey, a dog, and me.

As I sat in the living room last night, trying to determine if I had anything to post about, Roxy Belle went through her daily routine of trying to get on the chair.

This is how it goes ...

She actually made it on the chair this time. Usually she doesn't. 

She tries. 

She goes back and forth, back and forth. And, usually she ends up just heading over to lie on her blanket on the floor.

This is her thought process: 
1. I really want to get on that chair.
2. I could jump on the chair.
3. I'm fatter than I've ever been.
4. This is going to take some thought.
5. Do I think I can actually do this? 
6. Can I make it onto that chair?
7. I'm fatter than I used to be.
8. How can I jump onto that chair?
9. Maybe if I get a running start?
10. Wait, I don't run.
11. I'm fatter than I used to be.
12. I should give it a try.
13. Nah ... I'll never make it that high.
14. I should try anyway.
15. I definitely will NOT make it up there.
16. Oh, Roxy Belle ... just try.
17. One foot in front of the other ...
18. I can do it.
19. I'm fatter than I used to be.
20. I'm just gonna go for it!

I feel like this is a picture of my life.

There are a things that God calls me to do.

I contemplate if it's possible for me to do them. Will I jump or just go and lie on the floor too?

Then, I go through the same back and forth.

My thought process:
1. God, I do want you to use me.
2. Wait ... You want me to do what?
3. I mean ... I could try.
4. But, God are you sure?
5. Because there are other people WAY better who can do this.
6. I mean ... I will try.
7. I'm not as young as I used to be, Lord.
8. Are you sure You want ME to do this?
9. Maybe, I'm not hearing You correctly.
10. You can't expect me to do that.
11. I'm not as young as I used to be.
12. I'm tired.
13. Maybe, I misunderstood You.
14. Ok, well ... I'll try.
15. But, God, what if I can't do it?
16. I don't want to disappoint You or others.
17. I can't do this.
18. I'm scared.
19. Well, if You say so ...
20. Guess I'll just go for it.

Amazing revelation, I know!

Just like Roxy Belle finally gets her fat butt up on that chair, we should just go for it! When God calls us, He gives us everything we need to fulfill that calling. So, we don't have to worry and go through the "back-and-forth". He knows what He's doing.

Roxy Belle is a picture of all of us.

So, will I ... or will you ... jump up on that chair or do whatever God's calling you to do? Or will we give up and just lie down in the corner because we were afraid we couldn't make the jump? Afraid we will fall? Afraid we will hurt ourselves? Or even just too tired to try?

Good questions to ponder. Thanks, Lord for using Fatsy McRoxypants to show me this.

Actually, yesterday, God spoke to me in the good 'ol fashioned way and then showed me this visual at the end of the day.

The result: It's time for me to just own it. Stop doubting myself. Even more, stop doubting God. Stop worrying. Stop being afraid. Just jump. Not reluctantly. No back-and-forth. Jump with all your might.

I know this looks good on paper. And, once God shows us something, you'd think we'd just get it. But, it doesn't happen like that. It's a daily thing. The jumping ... there's always an opportunity to jump. And, with that, the "back-and-forth" will happen again or try to happen. But, when we know the truth, we also get the opportunity to change our response to God and to ourself. Yay, us!