This year has been full of changes, challenges, blessings, and lessons learned.
I could write for ages and spill my guts all over this page, but I don't want to bore you with the details.
Suffice it to say, it will be a year I will never forget:
It was the year where I doubted God's calling on my life.
It was the year where I felt unimportant.
It was the year where I just hung on to God's promises for dear life because it was all I had.
It was the year I felt stupid.
It was the year I didn't care about a whole lot.
It was the year I cried ... a lot, more than any year before.
It was the year I had to do a lot of self-talk and counsel myself through many things.
It was the year my appreciation for my husband grew by leaps and bounds.
It was the year I found out who my real friends were.
It was the year where I was tired.
It was the year where something had to give.
It was the year I found out what I am really made of and what I am not.
Tough stuff. And, a tough year. But, a great one at the same time.
God has been so good and faithful, despite my doubts, concerns, or stupidity.
I'm glad that His goodness is not dependent on anything I do. He's just good! He can't help it. This was something I had to remind myself of throughout the year. It was one of the only truths I knew.
And, now we enter into 2015 in a different light and a brand new outlook.
Life's changing for me:
I will be dropping my hours to part-time at work, which will allow me to devote more time to all that God has placed in my hand ... especially women's ministry and my family. We will be selling our home and moving, which will be a huge blessing for us financially. And, K Belle is graduating from high school, and La Petite Belle will be going into high school.
So much change. And, so many new things on the horizon.
I'm excited. But, also anxious. And, a little nervous (a.k.a., scared ... we Christians don't like to use that word because it makes us look like we don't trust God ... but guys ... lighten up, we're human and fear is an emotion God created in us so we can trust Him ... whoa! I'm preaching a sermon right there! (stick a pin in that)).
We are trusting God for provision and guidance. If His Word is true, then His promises are true, and He is trustworthy. So, we are taking that step of faith to trust Him ALONE.
We don't know what all God has planned. We don't know what will even be happening month-to-month. That's where the "nervous" (a.k.a., scared) part comes in ... it's when we don't have it figured out and must trust that God does. Because honestly, we don't AT ALL. I don't. It's out of my hands and control.
So ... there it is ... we'll just trust.
But, more than trust ... trust with enthusiasm ... trust with excitement ... trust expecting great things.
Here's to 2015 ... gonna be a fantastic year!