Thursday, December 4, 2014

My life got flipped, turned upside down.


Pump the brakes.

You know how the Fresh Prince arrives in Bel Air and kisses his former life good-bye in one quick sitcom opening song? That's the story of my life right now ... except I'm a white middle-aged woman (wait ... whuuuuut? Did I just refer to myself as "middle-aged"? Definitely inaccurate.) ... not moving to Bel Air ... and no catchy songs are being played in the background that is my life. But, I could bust a move and do possibly do some decent rappin' if I had to. I kid you not. Try me.

God has been busy at work in my life lately. He may actually be working a little overtime.

Over a year ago, my life changed as I was obedient to do what Beau and I believe God wanted us to do. There were doubts. Many doubts.

Did we do the right thing? Did we really hear God's affirmative yes?

I'm positive now that we did.

I'm positive because I've seen the results of hard obedience. Sometimes obeying what God wants you to do is not easy. And, sometimes it doesn't even seem like the right thing or make sense to you. But, if you obey, God works everything out.

Sometimes the "working out" part seems like forever. And, you wonder is it really going to work out at all. But, you press on and you wait. And, if you're a 40-something-year-old woman or one of those sappy, sentimental men .... you will cry ... a lot.

It's in those moments of despair and giving up that you can be real with God.

If there's one thing I've learned about myself recently, it's that I cannot be fake with God, much less anybody else. This can tend to be a problem with people, but works out perfectly with God.

It means I can tell him things like, "God, I'm broken. God, I'm upset. God, I'm angry. God, I don't understand what you're doing and I'm about to just give up. YET ... You are good. You love me. I will trust You. And, I thank You."

Yeah. You can do that stuff with God.

He knows your heart, so why be fake with Him?  Be real, but reverent.

There have been times and probably will still be times where I think God has forgotten about me. But, then I recall all the things He's done and continues to do for me. I recall Scripture and His promises to me.

There have been times where I thought I might lose my mind or need a counselor immediately. Yeah, that's probably still going to happen too. But, after I breathe ... and I mean, literally BREATHE, God reminds me again that He's in control NO MATTER WHAT. 

No matter what happens and no matter what I can't control, He's got it and He's not forgotten about me.

Things may turn out not the way I thought they would or want them to, but just like I trusted Him over a year ago with an obedient act, I can still trust Him now.

And, as I trust, He proves Himself to me over and over.

In the past year, Beau and I have gotten rid of about $9000 worth of debt. Done with. That's a good feeling. Not only did we do that, but were able to pay for our two-week dream vacation to Italy. We all got cars ... not new ... just new to us. Beau got his dream car and his dream upright bass (which he's wanted for over 20 years).

Yeah, all that happened in a year.

So ... now ...

God has orchestrated something else awesome for not only our family, but also for Him.

You see, my parents, have felt the call to be missionaries. Yep. At an age when most people would be thinking about and looking forward to retirement, they're being obedient to His call on their lives. Pretty awesome.

We've known about this for a while and have been waiting on all the details to be determined. And, now they are.

Within the next three months, we will be selling our home and everything in it and moving into my parents' house hopefully by this summer.

Talk about a whirlwind.

This is great for us financially, but SO great for the kingdom of God. They're going to be doing some incredible things and God's love will be shared to so many through this bold move. God really did work this out for ALL of our good.

Our next few months will be filled with work. All those things we had planned to get to some day will be happening ASAP. We're hoping to have our house on the market by March 1st.

It's a great house. We love it and the girls are a little sad about leaving it. So many memories here. But, there are so many more good things about moving and new memories to be made.

We don't know all God has in store, but we know altogether it will be continue to be worked out for our good and His.

Let me just take this moment to say that we believe all this occurred because, not only our obedience with steps we had to take in our lives, but also our obedience in giving.

We have pretty much always been faithful tithers. It was difficult when we were younger and totally living off of so little, but there was just one day where we decided we had to trust God and take Him at His Word. Either His Word is true or it isn't.

It is. I promise.

But, it wasn't the tithing that God was calling us to. It was the giving ... giving beyond our tithe ... giving when we thought we couldn't. Trusting ... yeah, that again. It always comes back to trust.

God really started to prompt us to give in different areas ... to give in ways that would be a sacrifice for us.

I could share all the different instances where God prompted us to give, and the blessings that occurred afterward. But, I'm not going to. Just know ... He means what He says. We don't give for the blessings. We give our of our love for Him. We give out of our obedience to Him. Whether He blesses us or not, we give. But, because we know who He is and what He says, we know blessings will follow.

So ... we're in this transition phase.

Life is changing for us ... we're selling our home, we're selling out stuff, we're moving our family, K Belle is graduating high school, and La Petite Belle is soon to enter high school.

Some big changes.

I know God's got us. And, I know His plans for us are good no matter what changes He brings. I'm sure there will be many more to come. So, we trust.

3 Comments:

sara said...

Loved reading this. What a great reminder of God's goodness AND His desire for our obedience.

Where are your parents headed?

Sarah@Life in the Parsonage said...

So cool to hear what God is doing in your lives! We are on the verge of some big changes/decisions too, and it's such a blessing to hear others taking those steps...it boosts our faith too. :)

Hannah said...

How cool! God really is at work. In many ways, it's been a difficult year. But in even more ways, it has been an immensely rewarding year. And that sure helps when approaching the holidays, to have so much to be thankful for and to point to and say "Hey, that was God!"
Thank you for sharing this :)