Monday, September 2, 2013

God is not out to get you.

Sometimes, even, we as Christians, believe that God is precisely that ... out to punish us. And, we look at His character as such.

I lived years of my early Christian walk, thinking I would never be accepted by God or used by God because I just wasn't good enough.

My whole identity was based on what I could do for God. How in the world could I ever make up for what God had done for me? He had and has saved me from an eternity of torment. And, better yet, He calls me His daughter, His child. I am so underserving.

So, what can I do to make Him love me more and not dishonor the precious gift He's given me?

I spent years of my life trying so hard to just do something for Him. Anything for Him. Whatever I could do, I did it. It didn't much matter what it was.

I was always working for my salvation ... always trying to pay it back in some way, which, of course, I could never do. It was tiring.

It's hard to just be content in the thought that someone ... anyone ... especially, God the Almighty would love me or you just for who we are ... just because He does ... the thought that there's nothing we could have done or nothing we can ever do to earn His love or gift ... unfathomable. He gives it to us regardless.

There was a time when my view of who God was turned out to be this faraway, righteous being that sat on a throne and basically shook His head in disappointment over me. And, because of that I put the responsibility of any blessings He might have for me on my behavior. It was my fault He didn't do this or do that for me. Everything hinged on me. Maybe I had some bad thoughts that day so that nixed my chances of a blessing there OR ... maybe I spoke harshly to someone or said something I shouldn't have said so another blessing just went down the tubes ... and so on and so forth.

It was just too hard. I would never live up to being perfect or worthy of a blessing so I might as well just quit.

When "quitting" was all God wanted me to do. He wanted me to quit trying and to just accept His love. His blessings would and do come because of His love for me and my diligence to seek and serve Him.

Yes, there is a law of sowing and reaping. There are choices and consequences. All those do depend on us.

But, God is bigger than our mistakes and bigger than our actions.

God blesses those who earnestly seek Him, who love Him with all their heart, who strive for righteousness and desire to live for Him.

He isn't sitting up in the sky somewhere, waiting for us to mess up, dangling a carrot of blessings in front of our face, only to pull it away after every trip-up. That's not who He is.

Our relationship with Him is so much deeper than this.

He loves us like a father. What kind of father feels this way toward his children? He desires to bless them regardless of whether they mess up or not. Sure ... there can and may be consequences now and then, but the desire to bless never changes. And, He waits anxiously to do so.

He desires to bless me. He desires to bless you.

I love the simplicity of the first part of this verse ... "Trust Him & He will help you." Simple.

Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust him, and he will help you. He will make your innocence radiate like the dawn, and the justice of your cause will shine like the noonday sun. (Psalms 37:5-6 NLT)

He is on our side.
Do we really believe this all the time?
I've been getting this song by Darlene Zschech in my spirit! So good! 
God is on our side. He is fighting for us.