Thursday, January 24, 2013

I just want to hold my babies.

Aw ... look how cute ...

K Belle

La Petite Belle

I've discovered that the worst thing to experience as a parent is seeing your child rejected or disappointed. It's simply heartbreaking.

You just want to scoop them up and hold them like you did when they were little.

I try to hold onto the memories of my girls as babies, even toddlers. It's so hard to remember sometimes, but I think of those moments and reflect on the times when they cried over a boo-boo. I would kiss those boo-boos and pray that Jesus would heal them and that made it all OK. It was done and over.

The wounds created as they get older are way harder. 
They don't disappear because I hold them or try to comfort them or even pray with them. The wounds are deeper. The older they get, the more intense the hurt.


As moms, we get into protection-mode. Isn't that great about us? God designed us especially for that very reason. We have a natural instinct to protect. I love that!

Some of us can be overprotective and try and shelter our children from any chance of them experiencing unkind words, hurts, difficult relationships, etc. But, some of us try to take a step back and let our children make mistakes and handle situations on their own.

I'd like to think I'm somewhere in the middle.

For real though .. there are times I'm the crazy, over-bearing mom that will actually pull another child aside and get onto them for saying something inappropriate or mean.

I know. Shocking.

But, most of the time, I try NOT to be that mom. It's hard when you see injustices happening to your own child though. SO. HARD.

But, I do it. And, I know I'm not alone.

And, then I pray. I pray for justice. I pray for God's will. I pray for protection for my children. I pray for them to grow in their faith. I pray for God to make Himself real to them. And so much more.

I have to trust and believe that God has my girls' best interests at heart. And, I know He does. I see glimpses of what He's doing in each of them every day.

It's so unfortunate that hurt is a part of growing and maturing. But, God always has a plan.

I will trust Him and try to stay out of His way as He accomplishes it.
(If you only knew how hard that is for a mom to do ... )


Dana Dawn Calverette said...

I know EXACTLY how you feel. :(

The Hat Chick said...

It is so hard! Haven't been here (or anywhere) for a while. Love the new look.