Friday, April 1, 2011

Crybaby


Ya'll ... God's doin' somethin'.

No joking around here.

For the past several months, I have lost all control in the area of my emotions. It's quite ridiculous.

I could be just talking about some random thing and the next thing you know, there are tears. What in the world?

And, I'm not talking just watery eyes. I'm talking full-on ugly cry.


I'm all about becoming more sensitive because honestly my tendency is to be the opposite. To a fault most of the time. I truly believed the words to the old "Big Girls Don't Cry" song.

For years, I rarely cried. Years, people!

Now, it's daily. I'm not sure how to respond to this new emotion. It kinda throws me off my game.

I know what you're going to say ... "Mama Belle, you're kinda gettin' up there in age. It's your hormones."

I'm sure that does have something to do with it. Hormones do crazy things.

But, even my sensitivity towards the Lord is heightened, which is welcome to me. The day I start taking all He's done for me for granted will be a sad day indeed. I actually think I grow more thankful as I get older.

I know that the added stress I've had lately may also play a part.

I'm going to put this newfound reaction to a test: 
As soon as my life slows down, if that ever happens, I will use some of that old-lady-hormone cream someone recommended months back. Then, after a couple of weeks, we'll see if the crying continues or stops altogether.

I am bound and determined to figure this out. If it's the Lord, I can't wait to see what His purpose and outcome will be. 

I'll keep you posted on the progress. Until then, let me grab another box of tissues.

2 Comments:

Liz said...

I've been there. I have found that as God starts awakening me and stirs a revival in my heart, the tears flow a lot more. I think it just means you have a heart of flesh and not of stone. Embrace it. :)

Jeanette said...

Can't wait to see what God will do through you!