Monday, September 13, 2010

Things that Drive Me Absolutely Up the Wall

Bad Attitudes - I've been having a lot of these lately. It would seem to be that I am a part of the very thing I can't stand ... a little hypocritical, wouldn't you say?. I'm normally a very cheery person, so I'm hating this about myself right now. Uck.

It's the very thing I correct my children about every day. Every. Day. You know ... the rolling of eyes, raising of the voice, stomping of the feet ... the same things I control myself from doing every day. Every. Day.

I'm trying to teach my children to control theirs too. Last night I muttered these words, "Even if you're mad or upset, I don't want to see that you are." I'm wondering if I'm teaching a good thing. Suppress that emotion, girl. Bury it. But, just don't let it out in public.

Dishonesty - In any form, I hate it. Hate is not even a strong enough word for how I feel about it. But, it's everywhere. If I'm not, again, training my children to always be honest with me, I'm dealing with it at the very places you'd think you wouldn't see such a thing. No one is immune to it. You will either be a victim of it or a perpetrator of it at some point in your life.

I'm a firm believer in telling the truth no matter what the cost. Because really that's all people want to hear anyway. I just have to work on my delivery. Said in love, truth can be healing.

Injustice - I have this thing about me. I hate when a wrong is being done and I can't do anything about it. I want to fix things. I want to make them better. I want everyone to have the same rights of everyone else.

But, problem is, it just doesn't happen. Do I give up? I just have to keep telling myself, "Mama Belle, life's not fair, no matter how bad you want it to be."

And, really, it's not. In the end, it comes down to how you deal with the injustice. How will I respond? As I've said in the past, God only holds me accountable for my actions, not the actions of others. That's a tall order because most of the time, I don't act, I react. And, that's never good.

Manipulation - You do realize that manipulation is just another form of dishonesty, right? Maneuvering a situation to your benefit. Deceiving. It makes my skin crawl.

Have we all manipulated? Probably, yes. I can honestly say that I've manipulated situations in the past, before I was a Christian, mostly by flipping my long, curly hair and batting my eyes. But, now that my looks are fading, manipulation is not even an option anymore. And, I would never try.

Have we all been manipulated? Probably, yes. But, it would take one smart cookie to manipulate me now. If you fancy yourself a manipulator, I'm already onto you.

OK, I've said my peace. Enough for one day.

I have a long list of other irritations, which I'm sure you'll hear about one of these days.

Ew ... this was a grouchy post. Tomorrow I'll post about how I love puppies and rainbows. Promise.


2 Comments:

Sara said...

Uh huh. Yep. Me too. Amen! That's for darn sure. You got that right. Preach it...
It's GOT to be the change of season, honestly, the funk is going around.

Teresa Dawn said...

My list is pretty much the same as yours :)