Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Walls


Walls keep us safe.

They keep bad people out. But, they keep good people out too.

Walls look good and can be adorned with all kinds of pretense.

After walls have been up for so long, they're very hard to tear down.

Every once in a while, you carve out parts of that wall where a select few can see in.

But, then they betray you. They hurt you.

Those open parts are filled back in and that wall is even stronger than before.

You wash your hands of this. It's over.

Years go by. You forget.

You start to trust again. You WANT to trust again. You're scared.

You let others see through that wall, even tear the whole thing down.

Then, you pray ... pray that you didn't make the wrong decision.

You continue to question and doubt.

You desperately want to go back and put that wall back up, but it's too late.

They already know you.

But, in you letting your wall down, they let theirs down too.

They're just as scared as you are.

Both scared. Both vulnerable. Both trusting.

And, when it all works itself out, and passes the test of time, you really have something of great value ... something rare ... something treasured.

7 Comments:

Rach@In His Hands said...

This was beautiful and so true, friend.

Rachelle said...

True that.

Trish said...

This is so beautiful and so touching, Mama Belle! XO

Vanessa said...

Beautiful! That is why we must tear the wall down. Will we get hurt? Yes. Will we find wonderful people behind that wall? Definitely. Those people are worth every effort to keep that wall down. More importantly, you learn more about yourself with the wall down then you do with the wall up! Thanks for sharing this. It makes me think about all the fantastic people God has put in my life when I was willing to let them in.

{Jodie} said...

Seems we've all done this as a way of self-preservation. I know I'm guilty - fearful behind the wall...

I hope I never do anything to cause you to fortify your wall.

thedomesticfringe said...

You are a wise one.

Great post!

-FringeGirl

Cathy said...

Very good!