Monday, September 21, 2009

A Girl Can Dream

What were your dreams?

My dreams surfaced in the second grade.

Here I am sporting my Dorothy Hamill hairdo.
Why that hairstyle was fashionable, I'll never know.
My dreams changed from year-to-year, but one dream continued to resurface.

You see, I had certain skills.

I saw my skill(s) as public relations ... or commentary ... even entertainment.

Mrs. Gisclair, on the other hand, didn't see the value in what I did, evidenced by this statement on my 2nd grade report card.
This comment was made by most of my teachers throughout my elementary school years.

I tried, Mrs. Gisclair and the others, I really tried.

It's just a part of me.

Keeping my mouth shut is not my strong suit. Although, I still try ... I really do.

But, here's the problem, when I don't say anything, others can read my mind.

Because my face has the ability to relate my thoughts while at the same time battling my mind that's speaking,"Don't make a face. Don't make a face. Don't make a face. Have no expression. Have no expression. Have no expression." Botox would really benefit me, not only for the temporary loss of wrinkles, but for the loss of expressions.

Absolutely no poker face. But, it's a skill I'm working on.

This ability to express myself and speak my mind has always been a part of me and led me to my dream of wanting to be ... look at it for yourself ...
Yeah, a lawyer.

I would have been Susan Dey's character from L.A. Law, not her character from The Partridge Family, although she did get to hang out with David Cassidy ... hmmm ... tough decision.
Like I said, there were other dreams:

Nurse (kindergarten & 1st grade - what my mom is ... typical)
Artist (3rd grade)
Actress (5th grade
Dancer (6th grade)
Writer (9th grade)
Social Worker (10th grade)
? - (12th grade ... that's what was written in the blank. Great timing for indecision.)

But, mostly -
Lawyer (2nd, 4th, 7th, and 8th grade)

Had it not been for my extreme fear of public speaking (yes, I had one), I might have gone for it. Instead, I opted for that Education degree that never put me in front of people ... oh, wait. I got over that fear pretty quickly, even if it was in front of the most non-intimidating audiences ever ... preschool through 5th graders, and all their parents.

So, what was your dream? What did you want to be when you grew up? Or are you still looking for it?

Because you know, I do have that degree in Education (taught for 6 years), and, right now, that degree just hangs on a wall. Will I ever figure out what I want to be when I grow up? Ugh.

Is sitting on the front porch (which I don't have ) in a rocking chair (which I don't have), reading the newspaper, and drinking coffee, while watching Beau pick fresh vegetables from our garden a life-long goal and dream?


thedomesticfringe said...

I wanted to be a doctor and then a private investigator. Those were the two things that really stuck and actually both still sound kind of exciting to me.

My son's report card says the same thing each year...'Talks too much!'

Didn't know you were a teacher. I bet you were a good one!


Rachelle said...

I would say the front porch is a good dream... and a garden! That would rock!

Katie@The Baby Factory said...

During a game of Rook last night my husband told me that I had no poker face....right after he bid me up and kicked my butt...

Elementary Teacher, Doctor, HS History teacher, SAHM...
SAHM I am....forever? We'll see about that.

Jeanette said...

My senior book says that by the time I was 30 I would be living in NY city working as a corporate secretary while being married and that I would have 4 children....

Reality, did the secretary/office thing for many years, had two kids and decided that 4 was insanity, now I work as a cake decorator at Coldstone creamery part time and as a Mom 24/7. Guess part of my dream did come true - I am a mom!

H-Mama said...

I probably got in trouble for not talking enough in school. ;) That's great that you still have all of those papers to look back on. Priceless.

For me... SAHM & Teacher. So, I guess I'm doing both. ;)

Sera said...

Of course, I always wanted to be a mommy, which I am to the 4 most incredible children in the world!

And I wanted to be a musician, which I did get my bachelor's degree in music.

I also had a dream to help people in a really big way. I feel like a part of this dream was first fulfilled when I was the children's choir director at my church. I LOVED teaching the children about serving others and helping others to become closer to the Lord through worship and teaching the children that they are never too young to serve the Lord.

Right now, I feel like the Lord is fulfilling that dream - or calling - through being able to teach mom's in my community and across the U.S. how they can be confident mothers when it comes to their family's health by taking control of their health through nutrition and through the plants that the Lord has given us... sooo fulfilling, especially when I hear testimonies from families who are getting healthier and overcoming health issues naturally.

Funny - I always said I would NEVER be a teacher! And here I am having been a music teacher, and now my children's teacher. I guess I missed that dream somewhere - ha! God sure does have a sense of humor. :)

And I think you would be a FANTASTIC lawyer!

Lois Lane II said...

That sounds like a good dream to me (the one with the porch, chair, and coffee, lol)!!

When I was three, I wanted to be a kitty cat. It's okay. You are free to laugh. Then I wanted to be a vet. Turns out I don't do well with blood. Found that out in 7th grade when I passed out at the sight of blood...Career choice? I still sure about teaching? LOL.

Sara said...

I spent hours playing "mommy" with my dollies. If I wasn't Mommy I was making up shows. Singing, dancing the whole bit. My neighbor would rig up lights and speakers and curtains. Unfortunately God did not give this showgirl a voice. And I am no where near SYTYCD good. In high school I took every speech calss there was, I loved speaking. The more people the better, th energy just hits me like a electric shock. I have giving up on dreams of broadway, again I can't sing. I don't have the grit to take rejection anymore. I look forward to volunteering when the little ones are off in school full-time. I had the chance to work at a school for children with special needs. Most of them had downs syndrome, I am always drawn to people like that now. No matter where I am, I'll talk to them, touch them, let them touch me. I see God clearly in them. I feel closer to him in those moments. Maybe I'll do something again with that...who knows. But I remember every single name of the ones I've ever met.

amber said...

I got a degree in education too. Except I never taught. LoL. Graduated in 2001 and never put that degree to use.

Lily said...

When I was four, I wanted to be a mermaid.

Then a teacher, and a mom... I became a mom, and currently I'm in school (at 37-- yikes!) with an eye toward women's ministry. Even though I started out painfully shy, I now feel called to speak. Not shy anymore. lol

jennifer said...

I had the Princess Diana haircut which turned into the Dorothy Hamill if I didn't feather it. One way or the other, it was the ugliest haircut I've ever had (aside from a really bad perm after my girls were born).

I wanted to be a ballerina, fashion designer, bank teller, teacher, and mom.

And yes, front porches and rocking chairs watching the man you love sounds absolutely perfect to me.

Rachel @ Future Pastor's Wife said...

I wanted to be a ballerina, a vet, a lawyer, a doctor, a stockbroker, and when I was one quarter from graduating with a finance degree, I decided I wanted to be a teacher (high school math to be exact), but at that point I was so sick of college I scrapped the dream.

I like your dream, even though there are a couple of "don't have yet"s.

sara said...

my report card looked just like yours. In fact, I spent all of 2nd grade with my desk by the teachers b/c I talked too much!

I wanted to be a teacher,mommy, archeologist, physical therapist, ski bum, in the peace corps and ended up in marketing and then a mommy....hmmmmm....notice pastor's wife was not listed in there! ha!

The Hat Chick said...

So THAT'S why Susan Dey always looked so familiar to me....thanks for clearing that up.

I wanted to be a ballerina and got just enough of a taste of the real thing to know that I would never be happy doing it.

I'm "in business"....and I can't imagine where it will take me.

3 Blessings said...

This cracks me up. My four year old son just told me he either wanted to be a sign spinner or a circus clown. Dream big son, dream big.

Tammy said...

Let's see...I wanted to be a doctor, an astronaut, a pilot, an orthopedic surgeon.....but NEVER a teacher. And if this nursing thing doesn't work out (12 years later) I want to decorate cakes!

Kari @ p.s. said...

My dreams changed every year. A gymnast (like Nadia Comaneci), a ballerina, a teacher, a tap dancer, a dancer, an actress (this was the one that lasted the longest), a singer (though I can't sing good)... I have held a large number of jobs and consider mommy the best, though I have always dreamed of being successful in business and as of now I have my own small business and a non profit that are my 'babies' career wise. We'll see where they take me. Fun post.

RR Mama said...

Only a month into the school year and my oldest got in trouble for eating in class. He said that one of his friends was eating their lunch because they were hungry so he went and got his chips! I tell him every morning to be a leader not a follower and to make good choices. Guess I forgot that day. As far as what I want to be when I grow up, I'll let you know when I grow up!!

fransmomma said...

my kindergarten teacher had to create a special little note just for me because i talked too much. i woudl either get a happy face note ("i kept my mouth shut today! or a sad face note (shutUP!). so i can relate.

i wanted to be a vet (as in animals, not armed forces) until i discovered my fear of dogs i didnt know (like, not mine or my friends'). then it changed to nurse sometime in middle school and followed me all the way to choosing my college major. i never got that degree, but i think if i went back now i wouldnt want to be a nurse anymore. i would probably major in musical theatre. what on EARTH would i do with such a thing.
all that said, i love performing and am able to do it on a strictly community level. but its good enough for me.