Thursday, August 13, 2009

You're so vain. You prob'ly think this post it about you.

Not you. Me.


I'm the vain one. I just thought that was a catchy title.

I truly am vain.

You see, I can't see. Literally. Can't see.

As in, I need glasses or contacts. When I say "need," I mean I see nothing but blurred, freakish faces without my glasses or contacts. But, my contacts, which have to be specially made (told you), are giving me problems, making me resort to wearing the 'ol glasses.

I hate wearing glasses. Hate. it.

I feel like I don't look good in them. I'm not saying that to get you to say that I do. Just hear me out.

There are people that look good in glasses. In fact, some I would say might even look weird without their glasses on and I love the way they look with glasses.

For example:
Funny lady
And, my favorite ...
These women look great in glasses. Not just great ... gorgeous.

In fact, I think more about my dorky appearance with glasses, or what I'm going to wear from day-to-day, or how I'm going to fix my hair, than I do about the things that really matter.

What's worse is my heart.

My heart truly is wicked and evil above all things. I can't honestly say that I even desire some of the things I should ... the things that God tells me I should desire. My heart says NO.

The desire for a 24" waist far outweighs my desire for a "gentle and quiet spirit." It really does, no matter how hard I try to want it.

I know that's what I should desire, but my flesh is way too selfish for that.

My flesh says I am the most important thing in my life.

Oh, Jesus ... I'm appalled by my own self-centeredness. Forgive me. I truly want to desire what I should. The only truth I know is that You are the only Truth, You are the only Way. I can do nothing without You. Purify me, God. Make my heart Your heart.

This really did start out as a post just about my glasses.


"Rachel" said...

Well, whatever this started out as, I like how it ended. I've been having the same convictions lately myself.

Bella said...

Bless you...I love your blog.

Lindsay said...

Keep looking up!!

Kari said...

Honesty is becoming! Good post.

3 Blessings said...

I really love this post. He is revealing some eye opening truths to me this week. Thanks for sharing.

Sara@i.Sass said...

I hated my glasses too, then I got contacts, ooh I liked them, then I had children and they sucked up all the moisture in my eyes, so I can't wear the darn things without going through a bottle of rewetting drops...But I have to say, WHAT IS IT about us women judging our own bodies and imperfection to the point of loosing sleep and being "blind" for the day just to look good???
I sure can't wait to look in my heavenly mirror because for as much I a say "ewe" here, I'll be like "DANG! I look GORgeous!"
Maybe God should sell contacts, you know the kind where you get to see how he sees...

Sandy aka Doris the Great said...

Amen sister! One of God's ways of getting us to give up on our vanity (or at least a huge portion of it) is to allow us to grow old ---- and wrinkled ---- and tired ---- and grey ---- and fat ---- and ........... well, you get the idea.

S.i.g.hhh! There's not much we can do about it. Except be so eternally grateful that all along, He loved us just like we were (and He does now that we're [read I] old)!

TCKK said...

This hits maybe a little too close to home. Guess I need to think a little about this one.

Rachelle said...

I bet you look lovely. :)

OH yes...THE FLESH!!! It gets us every time.

Tracie said...

Feeling you sister. And i don't even wear glasses...

Windy said...

I went through the same thing a few years ago and finally just gave in to the glasses.
Now as for the meek and gentle spirit? Still working on it.
Getting ridding of self-centeredness? Working on that, too.

Aspiemom said...

Great post! We really do tend to spend much more time concentrating on our outside and not our inside.

I look awful in glasses, but had to give up my contacts a few years ago when my eyes became too dry. I was told it was an AGE THING. (The nerve!)

VERY catchy title!

Jeanette said...

I have "issues" with going out of the house without my hair done and make up on.

Vain much?!

Thanks for setting me straight!!

jennifer said...

I am on the other end of the spectrum. I need to remember that my appearance matters whether I care or not. I've got a long way to go.

I linked to you today because I love the look of your blog so much. It really is lovely.

Have a great weekend Mama Belle!

2nd Cup of Coffee said...

Hate my glasses, but I get the point of the post.

Missy @ It's Almost Naptime said...

are we the same person?

Amy said...

This post IS about me...not the glasses but the vanity part.

Thanks for your honesty!