Friday, May 29, 2009

How to Disappoint Your Child

La Petite Belle got in the vehicle today and said she had something to show me.

"Great," I said. "What is it?"

She pulled a trophy (for a year of being on Honor Roll) out of her backpack.

I say, "What?! You got a trophy today? I had no idea you were going to get a trophy, baby. If you would have told me, I would have been there."

La Petite Belle: "Yeah, I cried 'cause you weren't there."

(Insert heartbreak here.)

Me: "Oh, Baby, I'm so sorry. I would have been there. I didn't know. I'm so proud of you."

La Petite Belle: "It's OK, Mommy."

(Insert MORE heartbreak.)

I loved on this baby girl all afternoon. She loved on me.

How did I miss this?

I think my heart hurts more than hers.

It makes me think about my Heavenly Father and how I'm so not like the parent that He is. Oh, how I want to be. He never misses a thing. He's always there. He never disappoints.

I just imagine my child up at the front of the chapel, looking for me, and I'm not there. Then, she tears up and cries to her teacher, who tries to comfort her because her loser mom didn't show up.

(Insert EVEN MORE heartbreak.)

OK, I'm gonna go cry now.

I'm sorry, Baby Girl.


RachelQ said...

Oh,I am so sorry... Why didn't they tell you??? Did you buy her ice cream.. that works...

Soliloquy said...

Aww dang! I hate it when that stuff happens!

You KNOW you're a great mom though.... right?

It's true. Don't let Satan beat you up! Just love on your girl. She knows it too!

Jeanette said...

I hate it when I miss the girls' stuff. Makes you feel like such a loser mom. Just so you know, we have all been there! My heart is sad for you :{

Extra hugs for you!

Lois Lane II said...

Don't feel bad, Mama Belle!! I had parents who worked all the time and weren't often at school events like that. But I love my parents so much because they are GREAT parents -- just like you! =)

sara said...

you're in good company. remember this one:

yep,it hurts. but fortunately for us, our wonderful kids forgive us. It's really how we respond after it happens that sticks in their heads I think and it sounds like you responded well!!!

The Hat Chick said...

I did that once too. I hate that feeling. The announcement for the awards was probably on a half-slip of paper still at the bottom of the communication folder. (At least that's where mine was.) Those announcements should practically flash neon!

bwallace said...

Look on the brightside.... it's better to have a disappointed smart kid than a dumb kid. ;)

Sarah@Life in the Parsonage said...

I hate when stuff like that happens. You're totally not a loser mom, and she'll be over it looooong before you...don't punish yourself.

That picture is just precious.

JenT said...

Oh, no! So sorry for ya'll. At least she knows you didn't miss it on purpose. That will help some, surely.

Rach@In His Hands said...

Oh, MB, I'm sad for you both! That is disappointing....BUT that sweet girl already knows how much you love her. I'm sure it will be forgotten soon.

2nd Cup of Coffee said...

Oh, I am so sorry. But I'll be honest with you, most parents do this at one time or another. I know that doesn't help any.

jennifer said...

oh man! that stinks! she'll remember that you loved on her afterward, though.

Tammy said...

Awwwww *sniff*

Had I not been coincidentally off I would have missed my kid's honor's day.

Congratulations to your sweet girl!

Birdie said...

It's such a heartbreaker isn't it? But I've one-upped you. This year Sissy was in the school play and had her first ever solo part & song. There were two performances and two people for the same part. The teacher told Sissy that the other girl was going to ave the night performance and she would do the day performance because the other girl's family couldn't make it to the day performance. That irritated me right there but anyway, I called the school office a week before the play to get the day & time so I could take the day off work. The day before the play I found out that the secretary told me the WRONG DAY and I wasn't able to get a sub for that day so I had to work. During my baby girl's first ever solo. I felt HORRIBLE. THen her teacher got the bright idea to tell her that the day performance was just the "practice" and the night performance was the "real performance". It was a huge deal to Sissy & I wasn't able to be there to see it. It makes me mad all over again just thinking about it!

Sara@i.Sass said...

Awe, bummer. That really stinks.
Try not to be too hard on yourself. We ALL make oops-es. Being honest with her is the best way to heal the hurt. Which I know you've done. Chin up, it's a new day with new mercies. :)

RR Mama said...

Hate when that stuff happens. My youngest had pre-K graduation last week and I went because Hubs had baseball practice with my oldest. And wouldn't you know it, he got to say the pledge and I was the only one from the family there. He was more upset that his grandparents weren't there. Poor La Petite, glad you got to spend some one on one time with her.

Autumn said...

Don't be too hard on yourself. (Easier said than done!)
We should not let our mistakes define us.

Tami said...

Why didn't the teacher tell you. I'm so sorry. But don't beat yourself up. I miss a lot of things because of the two little ones and there is always mommy guilt. But you just can't know and do everything. Sorry you missed that.