Monday, May 4, 2009


No matter what we do in life, we will always have to deal with history ...

history of how events and circumstances have affected our lives,

history of what others have done that have affected us,

history of what we have done.

We can say, "Oh, that's history," and sweep it under the rug like it doesn't mean anything to us.

But, history actually shapes who we are today, so it must be discovered and understood.

We must understand why.

The whys of life kill me. I can't let them go. I've got to have answers. I hate that about myself. The sweeping under the rug sounds a lot more appealing and then, nothing ever hurts or means anything. Just live life superficially. That's easier, right? Wrong.

How can a person go 20 years of their life feeling nothing, only to have gut-wrenching hurts appear after those years? You know the kinda hurt that makes you want to vomit?

History. You must know it. You must understand it. You must deal with it. And, most importantly, you must grow and learn from it.

History will never go away, whether we've ripped up or burned the book. History is etched in our mind forever.


RachelQ said...

You know, I wrote about this in my journal last week. All of a sudden I realized why I reacted a certain way to a certain event... and now I understand..

hugs to you

Sarah@Life in the Parsonage said...

So true. No matter how much we may want to, history can't be changed, it is what it is. It's what we do with it that makes all the difference.

Wendi @ Every Day Miracles said...

I'm "good" at the denial thing... only it just delays the inevitable (having to deal with the issue) and it compounds the hurts.

Dealing with some of this in my own life right now.

SO, so true.

Kari said...

I'm dealing with this right now too. I would so much rather just not deal with anything in the past because I can't change it anyway. But it affects the way I deal with issues, and therefore can change the way I head into the future God has planned. I want a healthy future.

H-Mama said...

so true. it's all about the response... whether or not we understand it.

jennifer said...

I get this post. And history is indeed a booger bear. I have beat myself up more times than I can count because of regret. And having that surprise slap in the face because of memory is a horrible feeling.

I try to respond in a Christ like manner.

SmockLady said...

The biggest lesson I have ever learned from history (my own) is a lesson I have to work on daily. It is because of my history that this lesson is even necessary. Reminding myself that it is much more important to respond than to react.

Brandi said...

Have you done Esther by Beth Moore yet? SO good. She says that your history in intricately connected to your destiny and without allowing the Lord ot uflly use your history, you will never see your destiny fully realized because HE doesn't ever toss things aside, but uses every single part.

Good stuff
PS Can you tell I'm catching up? Just got back from Uganda a few days ago =)