Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Do you have to have a reason to be grouchy?

There are some days when I'm just grouchy. My mind is saying, "Man, you are soundin' grouchy. What's wrong with you?" I mean, do I always have to have a reason? Oh, yeah ... it's the "you're a Christian, you can't be grouchy, cranky, or mean ... ever!" And there's always the hormones excuse, which we, as women can probably use for everything we do, but I don't want to be ruled by my stinkin' hormones.

Anyway, I just have to say ... I'm cranky today. There is no reason, and that little angel and that little devil on each shoulder are about to have a knock-down drag-out. I really want the angel to win, but the devil is honestly just makin' me feel good about my behavior ... my attitude is justified.

And, when I'm cranky, I can think of about 25 things that are not fair in my life ... maybe even more. One thought just leads to the next and the next.

No, I'm not the perfect Christian. I know you are all surprised by that bit of news. And sometimes, honestly, I don't want to even try to be. It's too hard. And it ain't ever gonna happen. 

And then, here's the angel on my shoulder (or should I say, Holy Spirit) ... "Suck it up. Get over yourself. You are not your own. An incredible price has been paid for you, dummy. Don't you know that? You are My light to the world, whether you want to be or not. It's too late. You must be "Jesus" to everyone you come into contact with. Stop being selfish and wallowing in your own self-pity and die to yourself." OK, I know the Holy Spirit does not call me "dummy." Just my interpretation.

So, basically, I just need to keep my mouth shut today and just pray it through, even though the grouchiness feels better.

God, please forgive me for forsaking you and making you not look so good in the eyes of others by my example. 

I'm gonna go cry now. Don't worry; it's a good thing.


Patrice said...

I'm having a few of those days....thanks for making me realize it's not just me and I need to get over myself! Have a nice cry....

Sarah@Life in the Parsonage said...

I throw the best pity parties for myself.

I'm in that spot WAY more often than I should be...praying the Holy Spirit lifts the grouchiness and your beautiful self shines through :)

Windy said...

I bet you feel better after that cry, huh? No one is perfect, except the Lord. Everyone has those days, it'll be better tomorrow:)

Kim said...

I want the angel to win, because your posts keep me going!!! Glad to know we are all human! Take care, praying for you!

Rachel said...

Thanks for sharing how the Holy Spirit ministered to you. I think every woman in the world needs to hear that - and often!

blessedwith5 said...

I had a day last week that I was REALLY grumpy. I made a post about it and received a really not nice comment by someone I had never met or even heard of. That is when I decided to moderate comments. After that I received another comment from this person calling me all sorts of not nice things.

I think everyone should be allowed a time of grumpiness. There are days when you just don't feel your best - no reason really, you just don't. We just can't all be happy all the time!

Hugs sweet friend! Psst . . . go get a Starbuck!

Queen B said...

I hope your day gets better.

If it doesn't, go find the chocolate. (And if it does, go find the chocolate.)

Tammy said...

Yea, I've had a pretty crappy week and instead of getting over it I decided to wallow in it.

Hope your day gets better! :-) I'm with Queen B. Get some chocolate.

Tracie said...

Hey Mama Belle~

Just hoping your day of the grouchies is already better, by the time I am reading your post.


Lula! said...

Are you feeling better? I didn't have a crappy day, but just listening to this song (I sat here & paid a few bills while it was playing!) made me feel heaps better.

Grouchiness does sometimes feel better...but so does praying through it.

Birdie said...

We may fall but it's the getting up part that's important...way to get up! You go girl!!!

Tiff said...

God is really good, and us? Well, sometimes we're just not. Sometimes it's just not easy to be all warm and happy all the time,but He knows our strengths and weaknesses and loves us just the same, thank goodness!
And to answer your question, I think life in this day and age is enough to make anyone stressed out and grouchy! Not that it ever happens to me, mind you... ;o)

RR Mama said...

I hope your day got better. And like Queen B said go find the chocolate. Everything is better with chocolate. By the way, I found those shoes on someone else blog. And thought they were fitting being Ike has decided to invade the Texas coast. Uninvited if you ask me. I laughed so hard and so loud my oldest came running down the hall to make sure I was ok. He said it sounded like a gila monster had landed in the living. Do you know what a gila monster is, because I don't.

THE ROOST said...

I have been on the same emotional roller coster ride...Mad, crying, laughing..all within 5 minutes! I love how you talked to yourself! Great advice.

Jen said...

And the associate pastor's wife would just like to add:
"Cranky? What makes you think I'm cranky? Just who do you think you are judging me about being cranky? I'll be cranky anytime I like, thank you very much! Now get out of my way and stop being annoying!"
Honey you are loved no matter what your attitude -- which I have to say (because these are the rules for us associate pastor's wives) "should be like Christ, who for the joy set before him, endured the cross, despising its shame..."
I'm with QB. Chocolate is always helpful.

Chel's Leaving a Legacy said...

Thank you for letting your "real" self shine through, even the not-so-perfect stuff. Cuz that reminds the rest of us that we don't have to be perfect, either. :-)

I do hope your day got better.

I tagged you for a meme at my place...come see!