Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Just How I've Been Feeling Lately

My flesh is weak.

My mind weaker.

Most of the time I desire to do the right thing and follow the Lord.

Sometimes I don't. Herein lies the battle.

There is truly a war waging in my head ... a fight between good and evil. Sometimes I really feel like there is that little angel on one shoulder and that little devil on the other, each trying to persuade me to follow them.

I ate two Dove chocolates today (no that's not the evil things I'm talking about). You know how they have the little sayings inside them?

The first chocolate said ...
I have no problem with this one! I'm pretty fearless.

The second chocolate said ... (No pic) "Do what feels right." This just made me think about how the world sees life. 

As I walk through this daily struggle, trying to keep my mind pure ... praying every day, "God, please renew my mind. Make me like You. Cleanse me. I want to think like you, even though my flesh doesn't want me to," this little piece of chocolate is telling me to throw it all away. Cursed Dove chocolate!

Here's the Scripture that has been my life for the past several months (or maybe my whole Christian life):

Romans 7:17-25 -
But I need something more! For if I know the law but still can't keep it, and if the power of sin within me keeps sabotaging my best intentions, I obviously need help! I realize that I don't have what it takes. I can will it, but I can't do it. I decide to do good, but I don't really do it; I decide not to do bad, but then I do it anyway. My decisions, such as they are, don't result in actions. Something has gone wrong deep within me and gets the better of me every time.

It happens so regularly that it's predictable. The moment I decide to do good, sin is there to trip me up. I truly delight in God's commands, but it's pretty obvious that not all of me joins in that delight. Parts of me covertly rebel, and just when I least expect it, they take charge.

I've tried everything and nothing helps. I'm at the end of my rope. Is there no one who can do anything for me? Isn't that the real question?

The answer, thank God, is that Jesus Christ can and does. He acted to set things right in this life of contradictions where I want to serve God with all my heart and mind, but am pulled by the influence of sin to do something totally different.

Lord, help me not to be a contradiction!


Jackie @ Our Moments Our Memories said...

You got inside my brain and wrote this post for me, didn't you? Wow. This is spot on. When you said "It happens so regularly that it's predictable"...yeah. I know exactly what you're talking about. And then afterwards, I feel tremendously guilty and awful, and wonder why I can't get a handle on it. Thank God that He is a forgiving and gracious God.

~T. said...

Same thing here, I struggle terribly with this exact same thing every single day, I think that every Christian probably does.... I wish it was easier done than said, instead of the other way around!

Andrea said...

Thank you for this! I have been struggling lately, and this scripture is EXACTLY how I have been feeling.
I definitely needed this today!

Sarah@Life in the Parsonage said...


I feel the same way most of the time. It really is a constant battle.

Thank you for sharing your heart.

Queen B said...

I completely understand. It is so frustrating to look back on my day and see all the times my flesh won the battle!

Thank you for the encouragement.

Jill @ Live Laugh Blog said...

I am right there with you, walking on the same road.
Oh, if only I could keep my mouth shut every once in a while.

blessedwith5 said...

OH MY GOODNESS!!! I have been trying to figure my five year old out - he can't seem to stop being disobedient, lying, taking things without asking, sneaking around and being hateful to his brothers.

Thank you, Thank you, Thank you - the post you wrote today puts things into perspective for me - just like getting hit in the head. No matter how hard HE tries and promises he won't do something - the sin aspect always jumps back in!

I also must confess your post "HITS ME BETWEEN THE EYES - MYSELF" Thank you!

Daiquiri said...

Boy, can I relate! I had to laugh at your "Do what feels right" chocolate wrapper. I eat those same chocolates, and my friend and I roll our eyes at the little messages all the time :)

About the struggle. It is a struggle, to be sure. But I'm always a little, I don't know, happy? Happy to be struggling a bit? To me it tells me that I'm on the right path...the path to God this side of Heaven will always be a struggle. I think the struggle is evidence of the Spirit working in my life and my FIGHT. My fight to live a Godly live instead of a worldly life.

Sorry to go on and on. Just my two cents :) Sure love your blog!

blessedwith5 said...

Your Welcome! I just couldn't pass up the opportunity to link to your wonderful blog - it is just what I need sometimes! I love the song too!

Minister Mamie L. Pack said...

Each day begins with a new journey in our relationship with Christ. Some days, I am on top of things. I wake up early to pray, read my Bible, just filled charged up to serve and be obedient to His word. Then there are other days when I say to myself, I am I even growing? I thank God that He never gives up on us and continues to shower us with His love even when we ignore Him. How wonderful our God is.

Minister Mamie L. Pack

Andrea said...

Can you tell I'm playing catch-up here??!! I think it's normal to feel this way from time to time. I just finished Beth Moore's "Stepping Up" and let me tell you my mind is right and focused on Him and "sewing the seed." I'd highly suggest gettin' this one - you'll be on Fire for the Lord with a blaze that is so fierce nothing can dampen it!

If you do happen to read something or do a study, please let me know as I'm always looking for suggestions to help with exactly what you've described!